“Vulnerability is not about fear and grief and disappointment; it is the birthplace of everything we are hungry for.” – Brene Brown
Writing has been my passion for as long as I can remember. However, it is one of the things I keep most private in my life. Some of my closest friends have never seen my writing, aside from personal holiday cards I make out to them. In fact, I am about 1,000 times more likely to share my stories with complete strangers.
When I started this blog, I made a separate Instagram account. To this day, only my childhood best friend and significant other know about any of it. I feel like I am leading a double life. I maintain my personal social media accounts, posting mostly the highlights and an occasional meaningful quote. However, when I want to write something dear to my heart, something that may help me truly connect to others, I turn to my “secret” sites.
Today, I am making myself accountable. Fear has stood in my way for so long. Given my struggle with anxiety, I am pretty sure it will continue to play a role in my life. However, I am trying to make that roll as minimal as possible.
I am starting to realize that the longer I live in a bubble, the more lonely I feel. Slowly but surely, I am going to expose myself. The real me…including my struggles, fears, strengths, and passions. I read memoirs and blogs to feel a connection to others. Now my intention is to write from my heart so that someone, somewhere might feel less alone.
Fear can be overwhelming, but we get to decide if it will dictate our lives. We are in the driver’s seat, wether or not we realize it. Today, I am taking back the wheel. I hope that you do too, in whatever capacity feels right for you. Auto-pilot can cause us to feel stagnant, unfulfilled, and bored. I encourage you to redirect your life, and head in the direction your soul is guiding you. With your heart as your GPS and courage as your co-pilot, this could be the adventure of a lifetime.